exactly where i want to be
Two years ago, a friend was blogging and he asked me if I would like to be featured on his blog. I was honored, but had no idea what he wanted to me write about. I asked for direction, and he told me the perfect thing would come to me–and I think he was right. Take a read of this. Two years later, I still support all of these thoughts and words.
Meandering down the historic streets with wide eyes and not a care in the world my “Ah Ha” moment occurred. I realized this is exactly where I was meant to be. In that first stroll down Constitution Avenue and my staggering up to Abe Lincoln’s Memorial I felt absolutely unstoppable and infinite. Two years and 5 months ago was the first time I stepped foot in our nation’s capital and that was also the first time my dreams had occurred to me. Though my dreams are broad, they are anything but far fetched because of the passion that drives me to fulfill my goals.
With graduation around the corner, it’s interesting to look back on my childhood. Every child is asked that all telling question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” and even now that question is asked, and it holds the same truth. However, when you are a child, the sky is the limit and generally no remorse is held with the answer given compared to now, there is much reservation. Reflecting back I wanted to be the following: a veterinarian, a pediatrician, a mom and obviously a rock star; the sky was the limit. If you ask me now that same question, my responses some would say are very different and vague; a speechwriter, a dreamer, an environmentalist and a game-changer. But with each answer there are many correlations with what I wanted to be when I was a child and now. There is still a strong connection to humanitarianism and helping people from all walks of life for me.
My first summer in DC I realized my passion for politics. As I stepped onto the plane, to leave DC and go back to Wisconsin, anxiety was the only emotion that I could recognize. With two very uncomfortable plane rides a head of me, I decided to sort out my feelings and write. Since that moment I knew DC is where I belonged and I wasn’t going to sleep until I knew I would be there again. That’s when I decided, I needed to be in DC and the only place for me was The Hill.
When November rolled around I began to peruse my dream. I started researching. I finally narrowed it down to the top 5 offices I wanted to be placed in and the 13 offices I was going to apply to. I spoke with a few people who have experience on the Hill and they kept telling me I needed a back up plan if DC is really where I wanted to be for the summer. I brushed that off and took their advice with a grain of salt and left it aside. When I came home for spring break, my parents were eager to hear about interviews and what has happened. I could tell they were leaning toward me staying home at working, which was the realistic approach. I had three interviews in the same week, I could feel something really promising happening. I never heard back from any of them. This is when crunch mode set in. Then there it was, the last week in April, I was home for a weekend and had an interview with Congressman Sean Duffy’s office. Once I got off the phone my mom asked, “so… how did it go?” I brushed it off and didn’t really think I interviewed the greatest.
That following week, I was walking to my Tuesday night class and got a call from the office asking me if I was still interested in being their intern. I left class to call my parents and accept the offer. Two weeks later, I was in DC. Having the opportunity to peruse my summer dreams in politics in Congressman Sean Duffy’s office was an experience I will never forget.
Understanding what your dreams and goals are helps you to define yourself as a person. My friends would tell me I was being cocky, but I just saw it as confidence. I believe that if you want something badly enough, with the work you put it, it will happen. You can’t tap out until the fight is over and that is exactly what I did.
As Andrew posed the questions, are you happy with the direction your life is heading? If not, are you willing to go to hell and back to fight for what you believe in and what you want? Those are things that you legitimately need to think about. And I can honestly say, I am happy with the direction my life is heading and I willing to go through hell and back to fight for what I believe in.
A first realization must be that your career will not be about how much money it’s offering because if that’s a fact that, you’re in it for the money not the passion. Your passion lies with the things that make you get up in the morning. It’s about the things that make your skin crawl. It’s that thing that irks you. It’s what pulls on your heartstrings and makes your blood pump faster; for me, in short, it happens to be politics.
After talking with a few of my friends who are sitting along side me at our graduation ceremony in a few short days, I noticed a lot of them are neither happy nor convinced. This is something that is absolutely beyond me, if you realize that the road you are heading down doesn’t take you to the future you see, then stop! And reevaluate. And if this means going against the expectations you have had for yourself for as long as you can remember, or even the expectations of people who are close to you, then I hope you have the courage to stop and reevaluate. You have the courage, just find it. You deserve to do what make you happy.
I would be a hypocrite if I told you I had everything figured out because truth be told, I don’t. I’ve had my “Ah Ha” moment, but honestly, I don’t have the faintest idea what’s going to happen, and I think that’s okay. I’ve spent three and a half years trying to figure out what I should be doing the moment my commencement ceremony is over and I still don’t have an answer, and that’s okay. In fact, it’s wonderful. If we knew the outcome of life, what would be the point of going through it? It’s a story, and it’s yours, and whatever happens just make sure you’re enjoying your life.
And now, I will leave you with this, “it will cost you nothing to dream, and everything not to.” Remember with drive and determination nothing will get in the way of fulfilling your dreams.